Changing.

Its my boyfriend's birthday today.
I love him dearly and I am so proud of the man he has become.

His mum is a bitch though. I know its cliche, but honestly she has treated him like shit all day. She has been calling him fat. This is the same woman who a few months back called my mum and said she thought I was pregnant because I had gained weight. I swore to myself then I would lose weight.
I still haven't.

But now I am determined too. I want to be ano again. I will talk to my best friend- a wonderful classy gentlemen who when I was ano was also ano and we would support each other. I am tired of feeling pregnant in front of her. I am tired of feeling fat in front of everyone. This is a new change. When I was ano it wasn't to the extreme, but I was so small. But did not look like a skeleton, and thats what I am going to become again this year. I have had enough.

Its amazing how your mind can suddenly assist you. I haven't eaten anything all day, and I am hoping to stay like that till dinner which I have to eat cause its my boyfriends birthday dinner.
He can't know I am planning on being ano again, I will blame the weight loss on exercise which I will be doing. and I will not get to the point where I need to hospitalised.

On another note, I love my mum. She gets me through everything and yesterday she bought me black hair dye for my new look and these gorgeous black shoes. She is amazing.

So is my boyfriend and I love how together and confident he is. He is amazing and I dont know what I would do with out him. He gets a bit too much when he is drunk and starts snapping at me ocassionally. But I love him all the same.

He is my everything.